Can't Turn to The Left or to The Right (Not Even After A Good Shower)

What is it about a shower..........that lures us in and keeps us captivated under it's cascading spell...........when we have the BEST of intentions that we'll only be there for a quick five?  As we can all attest, that quick five very QUICKLY turns into ten, then twenty, then thirty.............. easily.  It happened to me just now........... and of course, I had to write about it. Alguien mas a quien yo conozco, a quien yo amo tambien se aprovecho de una ducha bien larga.  Porque fue su primera ducha como persona libre....... pues, libre en cuerpo

A lo largo del dia de reencuentro con mi muchacho-ya suelto de su detencion (yes, and PLEASE don't ask me how it happened because the ONLY thing I will be able to tell you is "It was a STRAIGHT UP MIRACLE")-todas las mujeres de su vida logramos iniciarlo en su limpieza mas grande-el de su espiritu y mente que llevaban aparentemente anos enjaulados mucho mas antes que su cuerpo would folllow suit.

Yes, you read it right.  Mi muchacho is out.  OUT.  At least his body is.  His mind............. sheesh........... where do I begin?  I thought I would stop being sad when this day came-because I always had faith that it would (ojo-la guerra no se ha ganado por completo-pero batalla por batalla avanzamos, SEGURO).  But not two days after his release did the GA legislature get to work holding a "hearing" for one of a several anti-immigrant/immigration bills.  Colleagues and I tweeted the hearing throughout the proceedings,they proved to be nothing more than sham proceedings......kangaroo proceeding. Take the comment made by one of these legislators which my colleague overheard: "this is what I overheard outside of the CLOB 506 when arriving at the first and only 'open' House 'hearing' on HB 72 (English Only Driver License Testing Proposed Bill): 'We are just waiting to make sure there are enough Republican's to pass this today'."

WTF??? Herein lies the newest cage for my boy...........  Soooooo telling-when each of the women around the table asked our nene what plans he has for moving forward, la unica cosa that he kept repeating over and over again was, "I'm just gonna not even go out.  I'm not gonna drive.  I'm not gonna drive."  Let's park there for a second.

Se trata de.  Un nene.  De SOLO 19 anos.  Y ya sus planes mayores son quedarse escondiito en la sombra.  Para que no lo detecten.  Nunca mas.  Esta resignado a NO volver.  Tras rejas.  Detenido por indocumentado............ Una condicion que descubri que habia experimentado una vez anterior.....  En su vida tan corta.  (en otra ocasion les digo)

Can you imagine living a life where you fear even going out of your front door?  Upon pulling up to his family's residence I had him on the phone orienting me to the right door, and I noted a cop patrolling the vecindario.  I remember exclaiming, "Diantreee, nene!  Hay policia por to's la'os!"  And he said, "Miss, why you think I been staying in here since I got out?  I told (really pronounced like "toll", lol) you that the police-they everywhere."  He was right.  And I was confronted.

With another realization.  My boy's freedom of movement for all practical purposes ended the day he graduated high school.  And he most assuredly feels that his freedom to dream ended the day he watched the Senate of the United States of America so callously VOTE HIS FUTURE DOWN THE DRAIN.  I liked meeting his aunt VERY MUCH.......una mujer sabia y con cojones e iniciativa (fue ella quien llamo a los Georgia DREAMERs al leer un articulo sobre un muchacho en la misma que el nuestro)-she insists that este muchacho think positively.  Que empiece a visualizar de como es que quiere que sea su vida.  Que no deje por mas que pueda que alguien ajeno determine su destino.  All things I, also, have been beating him over the head with.  I felt good that I wasn't the only one close to him insisting on his tapping into his own personal power.

But HOW do you tell a boy who KNOWS what the GOP in this state is up to and who told me during one of our visits at Stewart, "Obama aint gone do nothing.  He just wants our votes" that it's ok to begin to dream again WHEN HE DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT IS EVEN SAFE ENOUGH FOR HIM TO MOVE ABOUT HIS OWN NEIGHBORHOOD???  GA's version of AZ's SB 1070 hasn't even made it out of public hearings yet, and he feels his freedom of movement restricted as if it has already been passed and signed into law.  This is so sad.  This is so sad! 

Let me put it to you shockingly, and for some, blashpemingly.  THIS is this child's foremost expectation..... to hear..... His foremost thought as to what will happen si piensa poner un pie fuera de su casa:

And when ye turn to the right hand or when ye turn to the left, thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the police, freeze.

For The Good Of Them...........

"nosotros nacimos de la noche, en ella vivimos, moriremos en ella. Pero la luz será mañana para los más, para todos aquellos que hoy lloran la noche, para quienes se niega el día. Para todos la luz para todos todo. Para nosotros la dignidad insurrecta, para nosotros el futuro negado, para nosotros nada" Lest we fail to understand & acknowledge Ali's dark night........ I'm here to remind....

Tonight I told a beloved amiga that all things would work out for her good because she is called according and submitted to her Divine purpose. Happy thought-Aren't we all promised that much? That things will work out for the good of those who are llamados segun Su proposito?

In the cruel wake of the AZ massacre, lied-about cross-hairs, and the colossal foul-up of the intended shaming behind the usage of the term "blood libel", I can't help but feel like no one outside of my very brown twittershere is talking about the particular calling Gabrielle Giffords was answering when God, Himself was put in a position to make good on His promise-to make ALL THINGS work together for this woman who was ALSO moving according to a purpose. Has anyone in your twittersphere raised cane about that calling? Chances are if you are one of my blog-followers, then, si...... Se ha alzado la voz grandemente -como diria mi prima. But if you are new here, chances are the info you've received has only danced around this purpose. Que pena. Y que falta de respeto, y horrible homenaje al legado vivo de la Congresista Giffords..........
Folks, it's plain and simple. But let me shock, rather than ease you down the path of understanding what we're really talking about here. See here this comment-submitted by an impassioned, and in my eyes VERY CORRECT Facebook friend of another impassioned and, in my eyes, also always VERY CORRECT Facebook friend of my own, during the POTUS' speech tonight in Tuscon:
"You can't talk against hatred and violence, when you are the U.S. president who has deported more Brown indigenous families than any other president in history, or when you promote laws intended to racial profiling." Carlos A Quiroz
If you need proof, allow me: http://www.nytimes.com/2010/10/07/us/07immig.html, http://www.nytimes.com/2010/08/18/opinion/18wed3.html
The truth of the matter is that the Congresswoman was hurt and six others killed because of her dedication to the plight of her brethren of the darker hue. She fought for immigrants(http://t.co/2rld0HO). And she almost died for them. And now that just tonight not only did she give another squeeze of her husband's hand, but so also did she open her eyes, I've got Sign ENOUGH that God is INTENT upon keeping His Word to make all THESE things SOMEHOW work out for the good of this lady......... who is called according to His purpose...............

But I am reading this BOOK, see-that talks about he inter-connectedness of all of mankind to SOME traceable degree. And not only does just the first chapter convince me of the UNDOUBTED influence over Loughner's behavior Ms. BL, with her sanctimonious self, had, but it also leaves me with a question on my heart that only the Lord can answer................
If Giffords' getting her stuff worked out, because she's called according to this purpose, and this PARTICULAR purpose for which she was targeted WOULD NOT EXIST if it weren't for undocumented residents like Ali, then doesn't that mean that by just being who he is and traversing the path that was laid out for him, through no choice of his own............... that's he and the millions like him are ALSO called to the flipside of he same purpose Giffords is? And doesn't that mean God HAS to help my muchacho??????? Doesn't it????? Things have to work.........
..............out...........,,
para su bien (yes, God, right? My boy counts, too!?)...................
.........porque el TAMBIEN tiene un proposito....... He DOES, God!! You'll find it on the dirty side of the coin they will mint one day with Giffords' face on it...........

"sometimes you may have to cry...". Yep, tonight would be that night........ tu sabes por que, Papa....
"and sometimes, you may have to walk alone" thanks to immigration law that's EXACTLY what it is for MILLIONS like my Ali.


*disclaimer:  I mean no disrespect to the Jewish community by speaking of Blood Libel, nor do I mean any disrespect toward Congresswoman Giffords in my attempt to draw a correlation between her and the community she serves.

We SHALL be free!

(Just pretend like you see an image of a brown woman instead.  Trust me, it'll be ooooo-kaaayyyyy)  See, there it goes again.  Rude and unapologetic cynicism.  I really don't even care if I just offended anyone with my tone, either.  Aint THAT sumthin?????
It's my birthday.  And thanks to some EVIL do-gooder I didn't get what I wanted.  So, I gave myself a haircut, instead.  Four inches. Gone.  Just like that.  But the pain?  Hah! THAT shit is still stickin around.  ON MY BIRTHDAY, TOO!!!
The BFF and I were happily on our way down the Brown Paved Road to Steward about 40 minutes outside of Atlanta cuando entro una llamada de la mai de Ali.  She told me some woman from an advocacy organization had already been there to see him and that he was sending word that this quack job had probably already used up his ONE visit a week he is allowed.  We pulled off the road as I called the center to check, and sure enough the idiota on the other end of the line helped my apparently illiterate ass understand what WAS NOT written nor sufficiently implied that "each detainee can only receive ONE visit every seven days, NOT several different visits on one day."
respiro profundo
We turn around and head back....... a bit relieved that we were spared the remaining 2 hours of the drive that would have resulted in just being turned away, but with increasing resolve with every inch of ground gained on the retreat to hacer algo about what we were finding out as we got the details from Ali's mom was really a total and complete violation of basic human dignity and rights...................
Apparently a detainee can be MADE to receive a visitor even though he or she makes it CLEAR a particular visitor is not desired.  Please tell me how this is in any way RIGHT, FAIR, or even SAFE???  As the BFF pointed out, what if a visitor came with untoward intentions toward a detainee?  The detainee would have to sit there and feel threatened?  I fail to understand the humanity in obliging a detainee to receive an unwanted visit after he has made it CLEAR that he not only did not want to entertain that person, but that he, in fact, WAS WAITING for a specific visit from someone ELSE.  This is a 19-year old KID who is not able to see his immediate family and who COUNTS on seeing the next closest thing-ME-keeping my word to visit him regularly.  We are talking about alimentando espiritus, here.  And not just Ali's, but my own, and that of the BFF, as well.
We don't go to see this boy out of some insatiable need to quiet any voices from the past blaring messages of insufficiency at us.  We do not go to bed early on Saturday nights in order to be refreshed for our Sunday journeys as bleeding heart, guilt-ridden Americanitas who unbenounced to them, are really just patronizing with our presence the victim of a system of Western Hemispheric imperialism, domination, and economic decimation by this great land we happened to be born in and to where he happen to be brought as a child.  We go out of love.  That's it...........................

Tonight my boy will go to sleep on a hard slab of a mattress in a cruel, love-less cell.  I will sleep on an expensive mattress, after having been showered all the live-long day with love.  Mi muchacho may not have seen the snow falling all over Georgia tonight, but he will feel the frigid cold that made those flurries possible as he sleeps IN A MERE THIN COTTON SHIRT AND PANTS (because we can't bring him any warm clothes, nor do they issue the detainees any!) on what will surely be a COLD hard slab of a mattress in that cruel, love-less cell in a detention center he probably never thought he would ever be sent to.  I, on the other hand already have my snug nighties on, and the heat is pumpin just fine-I am warm.  And he is not.
If he is uncomfortable, then I, too, shall be...........  If he is humiliated, then so will I be.............. If he has to do without, then so must I.
So, even though I loved my long, lovely locks, away they went.  My hair will represent my solidarity with my muchacho.  If he must struggle to be free, and that freedom is what he wants, then I will struggle symbolically in some way (even though the suffering in my heart is VERY real and struggle ENOUGH when one has at least ONE GOOD CRY A DAY) to regain the vanity and beauty that I want.  I think it's a fair enough exchange........ Besides, I WANT people to look at me and see something so different they have to ask me why I did it.

Then I can tell them about my Ali.  And hope that one more person cares..................................
http://immigration.change.org/petitions/view/free_alisson_hernndez_snchez_he_belongs_in_school_not_detention

IF My People

My two Christian cents on the matter of US world policy....
https://vr.shapeservices.com/play.php?id=83808